"To Kill A Mockingbird"
Monday, May 31st, 2010
Journal Entry
Perspective: Helen Robinson
Dear Journal,
I don't know if my life can take in any more calamity. Every morning, I try to diminish the misery on my face, to hide the sorrow from my children. But I cannot fool them with little inconveniences. I certainly cannot fool my self. I am forced to wallow in the anguish that rips my soul apart. I suppose it all began one morning like any other. I was tidying up my little house in the neat row of Negro cabins. My son, Sam approached me and told me Mr. Atticus Finch was a waitin' yonder. I smiled as I walked toward the door. I was so grateful that Atticus had been such a caring, considerate man to help an innocent Negro. He had always been polite, kind, and helpful to Tom and I. Even though Tom was no doubt miserable in jail, I was still grateful that Atticus had truly done his best to defend Tom. "'evenin', Mr. Finch," I greeted, as I walked outside. "Won't you have a seat?" I paused and a small spasm shot through my body like ice; Atticus had a grave expression on his face. Something had gone wrong, something bad had happened, or else Atticus would have kindly greeted me back and consented to go inside. My voice constricted in my throat and I couldn't seem to breathe correctly. It had happened; something I had forced myself never to think about had happened. I collapsed.
When I woke up, I was in my house. Atticus and Cal were talking in soothing voices but I couldn't vaguely comprehend what they were saying. It had been lingering in the back of my mind that there was a possibility that something would happen to Tom, but I had foolishly chosen never to believe it. I felt like I was in a dream; that I would wake up from this horrible night mare. I wondered what the last thing I said to him was. I tried to imagine a life where Tom would never come home; where it would be useless to wish and hope and pray to God every night; where I'd never see him again; where he would be gone for good. Tears spilled from my eyes like never ending rivers. Waves of grief washed over me without mercy. When Atticus was done with his assessment and there was no more he could say nor do, he left unceremoniously.
The next few day or weeks (I forgot to keep track of time) went by like a dream. I felt as if I were looking a the world through a telescope, not really there. Everyone's life, problems, and worries were somehow far away in a different world. I still worked, in order to keep a living for what was left of my family. Work was good. It forced me for brief periods of time to concentrate on something else. Often, when I attempted to walk to work the shortest way, the Ewells chunked at me, so I ran quickly the other, longer way to work. When my boss, Mr. Link Deas found out, he became sorely angry. I begged him not to say anything; it would probably just make the Ewells more angry. I couldn't think about them doing anything worse, especially to my family. But Mr. Deas was stubborn. He went and threatened to lock Bob Ewell in jail if he dared assault me again. Everything seemed fine until a few days later. I had had no trouble with Mr. Ewell since the day Mr. Deas threatened him. But suddenly, he was behind me, following me, muttering foul language under his breath. I stopped at the closest telephone booth and hurridly called Mr. Deas. He came to my aid at once and straightened out the matter with Mr. Ewell. I have heard that Mr. Ewell has been about some bad deeds. He allegedly tried to rob John Taylor. I still have nightmares that he will one day come for me. I swear, his soul will haunt and persecute me for the rest of my life.
Sincerely,
Helen Robinson
Question: What do you think Bob Ewell was trying to accomplish by following Helen Robinson?
Question: What do you think Bob Ewell was trying to accomplish by following Helen Robinson?